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‘Mommy, I Want to be Famous’

On Saturday morning I was mindlessly driving my seven-year-old daughter from her acting class to my nine-year-old son's lacrosse game with the radio on when it happened. The moment I wish I could have avoided. If only I had been blaring music from my somewhat outdated and slightly embarrassing playlist instead of allowing my daughter to be infiltrated by a pathetic group of scammers. Here is what came on the air: "Does your child want to be a Disney Channel Star on shows like Jessie or Austin and Ally? Open call auditions for kids and adults are being held this weekend. Call XXX-XXX-XXXX to reserve your spot. Only the first 200 callers will be accepted." My daughter nearly stood up with her seat belt on and spoke directly to the radio, "I do. I want to be on Jessie. Oh Mommy I want to do it. Call the number. Please!" The person on the air repeated the number more than 5 times and she jotted it down. I took a deep breath and attempted to explain that what she heard may not actually be an audition for those Disney shows, but instead for an acting/modeling agency that wants to make money. She said with urgency in her eyes," Okay, that's what I want to do. Please Mommy. I want to be on TV." I knew she was being sincere and that she didn't really understand what I meant. She dreams of being on TV. She is shy and doesn't get overly excited easily. In fact, other than her continual campaign to get her own room or collect more Shopkins toys, she hardly asks for anything with overt enthusiasm. This is why my heart sank. I told her I would call later and learn more. I hoped she would let it go. She didn't. Hours later she was drawing at the kitchen table when she turned to her brother and said, "I'm going to be on Jessie." My heart dropped all over again. DAMNIT. My little star struck dreamer didn't forget... and now she is counting on me to come through and take her to this scam of an audition. I spoke to my husband and he didn't seem to see the … [Read More...]

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