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Faith is like love - @tinystepsmommy

Breaking My Silence: Why I Believe Faith is Like Love

"Why aren't you writing? I want to see you on the computer writing again." This may be the most romantic thing my husband has ever said. He knows how much I need to write. He understands how not writing weighs on me. More importantly, he believes in me. So, today I am going to break my silence. Forty days of not writing may not seem like a big deal to others, but it's the longest break I've taken in three years. I never planned to stop. I simply allowed days to turn into weeks and weeks to turn into a month. It is easy to blame my choice not to write on the potential professional changes taking place behind the scenes. Changes I still can't discuss publicly. Changes I can't wait to share because they really are the culmination of  many years of working with children. But, this would not be the full truth. Even though it's scary (terrifying in fact) to admit, I know that my non-writing phase is about so much more. You see, I have been going through a bit of a metamorphosis. Not on the outside, but within my heart. I suddenly find myself thinking about what it means to have faith. I find myself asking what having grace is really about. What it means to have a calling. Do we go down many paths in life making decisions freely -- good and bad -- only to end up exactly where we are supposed to be? I have always believed in God and in the interconnectivity of all life. I know with certainty that there is more beyond this realm -- that our souls carry on. I have seen many examples of the power of love and prayer in action and have never called this into question. But, I always considered myself more spiritual than religious. I think this is because I've never had a real church home and was skeptical of organized religion. I didn't like the way some people would use their religion as a way to place judgment against others. I also never felt this need to identify myself as a specific denomination. I didn't need "religion" to understand and fully embrace a life that … [Read More...]

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