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Do We End Up Exactly Where We Are Meant to Be?

Lately, I've been thinking about how we end up doing what we do. Do we set our own course in life, or does life set its course for us? Is there a larger calling for each of us, or do we just fall into doing something out of necessity? And is it possible that regardless of our plans or intentions, we end up exactly where we are meant to be? At the end of third grade I was awarded a blue ribbon for a poem I wrote about emerging as a butterfly. While I can't remember my words, I do remember feeling a surge of pride and accomplishment seeing it printed in my elementary school literary magazine. I decided in that very moment that I would one day become a writer. I knew at eight what I wanted "to be" when I grew up. I was certain of my path. I simply knew I was going to publish a book or become a poet or a journalist. As I grew up I kept this focus and determination. I wrote poems, song lyrics, and stories. I joined my middle and then high school newspapers. I interned at every opportunity and worked tirelessly at my college newspaper - rising to editor-in-chief. I was going to be a writer. In between all of this writing, I worked with children to make an income. I was a nanny, a daycare assistant, a babysitter, a tutor, a substitute teacher and I took education classes in college because I enjoyed it so much. Working with children was always what came naturally to me. I loved being around kids and I understood I was good at this too. But, this wasn't what I had chosen for myself. It's not what my eight-year-old self declared she wanted "to be." Also, my mother was a teacher and I wanted to set my own course. I didn't want to do what she did. So, I pushed this out of my realm of possibility. I believed I was in charge of my own destiny. After college I pursued my first professional job at a newspaper. I loved the energy of the newsroom. I enjoyed the late night deadlines and the freedom to hop in my car and drive to an interview. I was only writing about the local real … [Read More...]

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